Beginning

Everything has a beginning, a middle and a end. Well your up to speed on the middle, some of then end, so might as well share where this journey began. There might not be anything with a simple introduction. With this nice guy there was nothing there when I meet him. I actually noticed his best friend Ryan first. I wanted to stick around to talk to him but that didn’t really work out. Especially since the more I got to know his best friend I liked him but could not really see us dating. Or at least that is what I told myself.

A small group of talking and I don’t even know if me and the nice guy talk besides being told who he was. Since we were both getting to know the same group we were in large groups of people talking so did not really notice him. Then we began talking more with smaller groups. Finally to just have Ryan, him, my friend, and I just getting together. Should have known when Ryan and I would dominate the conversation but something intrigued him about him. Probably when I noticed he first liked me. It was about two months before he asked me out on a date. A small group got together to go bowling. Something really innocent correct. I don’t play but wanted to get to know people so went a long. Throughout the night I noticed him paying a lot of attention to me. I felt really special and wanted to get to know him more. (This might be why my mother thinks he was nervous, months of hanging out with everything fine, to a dud date, whatever). He would stay close to me, talk to only me and even dressed up! Not fancy but just a little spiffy. It made me feel really special and I like the attention.

He got to know a lot about my life and he shared some stories to relate. Conversation began to become easy between the two of us and I forgot I was originally interested in Ryan. The moment when I really feel for him though, was receiving the best good bye. Nothing major, simply him going out of his way to give me the sweetest hug. He just look at me I was expecting a high five from things in the way, but he moved them and said, “get over here!” I couldn’t help but smile. The moment the nice guy had my heart.

Lunch

Need to rush to the building on the other side of campus to grab some food, eat half of it to save the other half for dinner. Goodness I seriously need to stop talking to myself so much. I am like my own best friend in a psycho path way. The worst part is I’m okay with it. I should not let people know I am okay with this. But hey this is my head you’ve invaded. You wanted Kelly’s head and I don’t think you can be hating. Wow why am I like speed walking, there is seriously not need for this. I can slow down. Oh screw that this wind is too freaking much. Police man let me just cross the road and not have to wait for these cars. They’re warm and shielded. I’m basically naked come one. OKay so not really I am dressed fine but still. It’s cold. Score I’m crossing. “Thank you.”

“No problem, have a good day.” Oh I will thanks hot cop. Alright door slide faster and let me in. Just have to make it down there and get food. No matter what I do I will always get an Italian sandwich. They need to make different sandwiches. Well it is my fault I could make one from one. But really, do you think I would blame myself? Nope. Now are there two chair couches open? Of course not. It doesn’t matter anyway. Josh is la†e of course. Will this boy ever be on time for anything? Thank God we could never date because I am not sure he would even be on time for that. And that truly is not a lot to ask for. Be on time for a date. Like come one. But not my issue. 

I could grab a quick nap in my car. Oh but that will be like fifteen minutes, so not worth it. Besides I am already here. Should I even bother doing work? Let’s see 12:15, I have about a half hour before he’ll be here so I could recopy my notes. “Hey!” 

“What is this?!  Your actually on time.”

“I tend to do that from time to time.”

“So I see.” After we both exchange smiles of happy and awkwardness we proceed to share this chair couch and talk about the randomness of life. “How was work?”

“Oh god don’t even get me started. New topic. Thanks so much for offering to help me out tonight I really appreciate it.”

“Pshhh, don’t mention it.”

“So how was your date?” Oh man totally forgot I talked to him about that. Tell him straight up or avoided and be awkward? Cheerful it is.

“Umm, it was good.” Be sure to add an embarrassed smile to pull this off just right. Look down, then yes meet his eyes. I think I pulled this off nicely.